OBSRVTNS: March 14th, 2016
I took the week off. I actually got derailed a bit. I got out of the habit of doing things. I quit boxing a few months ago because it got cost prohibitive. Or at least, I decided that I didn't want to be spending that much money on fitness if I wasn't going to become a professional boxer. I also was having difficulty with my coach, he trains mainstream celebrities that can fork out serious cash for his time. I was his scholarship kid, I was getting his services at a super low rate, but it was still a significant amount of money to me. The problem was, I wasn't getting the kind of attention his other clients were, so it became awkward, like not enough money for him to be invested, but enough money that I felt he should be. So I left. And I left a little angry. I thought that after training for for months, two hours a day, five days a week, that I should have been a fucking beast, but I was still soft and doughy, and still confused and uncoordinated. Any time my coach turned his back, another coach at the gym would come up and try to correct my technique. The third time someone helped me "get it right" in a few minutes after my coach had failed to help me "get it right" after weeks of yelling at me in the ring, I realized, maybe he wasn't being a very good coach to me.
So there I was no longer training everyday and being lazy about it. It's not the fitness, but being on a regular schedule with training brings everything else together. I have a strong body. I'm tall and I'm heavy. I'm 5' 8" and 138lbs, and it's a lot of muscle. What I've come to learn is that my body need vigorous exercise. I think of my body like armor, in order to get to the good stuff inside, you have to break through that armor. If I'm not working my body to exhaustion, I very quickly get depressed, unmotivated, blocked as a writer, lazy as a stand up. It all kind of goes to shit. When I was a kid I played soccer and did ballet. I went to a performing arts highschool where I took three hours of dance a day, five days a week. I jogged five miles in the morning, and after school I was on the swim team. I also graduated a year early by taking extra classes and working through summer and winter breaks. It all has to go hand in hand.
So, I went back to the gym a few days ago. I'm back on a program, and that should mean I'm back on track with all of my projects as well. It's a hand in hand type thing. I know all the studies say that if you're depressed or upset you should work out, but I'm finally realizing just how true that is. You can't neglect the body and only work the mind.
Trans musician and advocate Ryan Casatta featured me in his debut video "Bedroom Eyes" which was picked up by Buzzfeed. Go read the write up and watch the video! Ryan has been a public advocate and accoladed musician since he was 15 years old, a true savant. I was very honored to be asked to appear in his video as the jilted lover.
This week's guest on OBSERVATIONS with Sovereign Syre (Subscribe on iTunes! Rate! Review!) is James Fritz. James is a Los Angeles stand up who came by way of Chicago by way of Kentucky. We talk about what it was like to grow up in a Southern Baptist family, the differences between the Chicago and Los Angeles comedy scene, then veer into what “bro humor” is and whether or not alt-comedy is still a thing. James produces a popular comedy show called Babe Island at the Big Foot Lodge here in L.A. and performs all over the city. I see him at open mics regularly and that makes me respect any comic that I see working at clubs that much more.