OBSRVTNS: January 19th, 2016
It was a rough week, full of ups and downs. It's awards season in porn, and it's usually the time of year that I reflect on my porn career, regardless of what's going on I can always remember what was going on my life at the time of each AVN convention I've attended.
The first convention was in January of 2012. I was a burgeoning starlet, the face of a new company called Girl Candy. I'd been performing in arthouse lesbian movies for a few months and had recently made the permanent move to Los Angeles with my long time paramour and photographer Joshua Darling. I was overwhelmed by all the glamour around me, the ballgowns, the huge rooms, the drinking and drugs, the orgies, the abandon and spectacle of it all. I felt like a well-scrubbed rube in my six dollar discount store dress, but I sent selfies of me in front of billboard sized photos of myself to my friends back home. The last time most of them had heard from me I was holed up in my childhood bedroom trying to kick a crippling drug habit. Some had followed me on social media when I moved out to NYC, became an art model, then transitioned into the porn equivalent of an indie-darling adult performer. I had some heat behind me as they say. Ill never forget watching the awards in the blue tinged light of the theater with the white haired southern owner of my company. He turned to me with a thick southern drawl as a girl accepted an award for best cocksucker of 2011 and said "I feel like I'm in a God damned David Lynch movie." He spent the rest of the convention buying me Red Bull and vodka cocktails and sneaking me cigarettes because "I quit."
This year I won't even be attending the convention, instead I'll be doing a stand up comedy show at Odd Fellows (January 21st 8 pm Odd Fellows in Las Vegas. Get tickets here: Hardcore Comedy)...things have come a long way...one of the things I like most about life is that you never really know what's going to happen next.
Last week I was in NYC doing a stand up show at Headquarters. I ended up doing a few open mics and connecting with Katy McVay, a stand up I really dig. I got to experience different rooms and I have to say I never felt more welcome than in NYC. I wouldn't recommend playing a strip club though, especially if you don't have a lot of material about sex. The thing is that although I am an adult performer and I tend to use Sovereign Syre for all of my artistic pursuits, I don't really market myself as a porn star and I don't have any interest in writing about it whether in a novel or for a stand up routine. It's going to be interesting trying to navigate that as I move forward in all my endeavors.
I've been enjoying doing stand up though, if nothing else because it gives me a break from writing the graphic novel. Which is going to be done with it's first draft at the end of the month. It seems like a lot of work, but I find that work breeds more work. The more productive I become in one area, the more productive I become in others. I've also started trying to read two to three books per week to get through my backlog. It's become easy.
This week's guest on OBSERVATIONS with Sovereign Syre is Arden Leigh. Arden is a seduction coach, which is interesting enough, but she has an incredible backstory that she shares with me in this two part interview that takes her from naive virgin, to head dominatrix, to public scandal in the NY Post, to published author and self made business woman. You won't want to miss her story. What an incredible woman.