OBSRVTNS: July 11th, 2016
A lot of changes have been afoot behind the scenes. I can't really talk about them yet, I don't want to jinx anything, but the future is looking bright and I'm excited to be moving forward in new directions both in my personal life and the life of this site, the podcast, my writing, the stand up, everything really. The theme this week has been one of organization, setting real goals, with dates attached to them and everything. I'm pulling out calendars and calculators, which is something that I always forget to do, but which immediately calms me. Feelings and fears are scary but numbers tell the truth, you see that nearly anything is possible if you can get the numbers right. The next year and a half of my life are going to be booked solid with creative projects, I'm working on a dream.
I have a sigil tattooed behind my ear. It's a design I made the combines the symbols for Saturn and Neptune, the planets that rule dreams and work. Its something I used to always draw on myself before I would start writing, to make dreams flesh. I've mapped out a framework for getting to all the things I want to get to and actually getting them done. My writing coach told me that I make a lot of plans based on being perfect and that if I want to finish anything, I'm going to have to change that outlook. It's hard, but I've started doing that, calculating in time during the day to lay on the couch for an hour and watch tv, factoring in that I might not want to cam seven days a week or that some weeks doing stand up is going to be more of a chore than a reprieve.