I just got back from visiting NYC. I was staying with a fellow comic, Alia Janine. She has a sweet place in Bushwick that has a podcast recording studio in it. Since I started writing my novel, I find that it's all that I want to do. This was the first time I was in NYC where I didn't really go out at all unless I was doing a set. I sat up till three and four in the morning sometimes in her office working on the book. I've become a bit obsessed with it. I think about it all the time, imagining different scenarios, watching people interact with each other and imagining how the characters would react in the same situation. Sometimes it give me ideas, some times it drives me crazy.
New York is always a strange trip for me. I have the weird kind of nostalgia where I can remember every fight, every desperate moment that I spent on various street corners, in random store fronts. I spend a lot of time thinking about the trajectory of my life, how I've ended up where I am now. I'm grateful every day that I made it out, that I made it through all the hardships that I've encountered on my way through life. I truly was the last person that thought I'd get out of the Hell I'd built for myself when I left home. I never would have thought that any of the things I do every day would even be possible.
I hate to be redundant, but it is what it is. Every day I have to stop and wonder at how far I've come. I'm always aware it could go away at any minute. I try to keep moving. My friend Daniel says that's my best attribute, that I'm always moving forward. My mom thinks it's my worst, that I never stop to appreciate what I've done.
I'll figure it out someday.
This weeks guest on OBSERVATIONS with Sovereign Syre is Civil Justus. He's a recording artist, director and activist. He's also if Barbie came out with a "Woke Bae" Ken doll. He's a sort of pinup for male feminism that's genuine.
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September 24th is Cobra Juice at the Steve Allen Theater. Ticketing and more info is available over on my shows page.