Richard Avery is one of the greatest fashion photographers ever, but he had a special love for porn girls and not the creepy Terry Richardson kind, but the "I respect the hell out of how brave you are and I want to capture you expressing every part of yourself" kind.
Not only did Mr. Avery photograph us girls like we were editorial fashion models, but he built us websites where we could write about our feelings and often for the first time, be the ones in charge of curating our images and brands. I recorded all of my podcasts out of a room in his house in Hollywood where he built a little recording studio just so us ladies could give ourselves a voice. He edited and maintained all of our silly shows and did all the pain in the ass stuff like upload those files to itunes and soundcloud and all the other tedious things that go into maintaining a web presence.
I came into the porn industry with a photographer/lover that had big dreams of turning me into a huge star and then riding my coat tails into the sunset. Things didn't quite work out the way anyone planned. When I found myself an MFA student turned model turned pornstar who had some aspirations to do more but no discipline and a lot of terror about being capable of doing it on my own, Dick was there with his hand out, saying, come on kiddo. He built me a blog, made me be diligent about updating posts to it. When I said I wanted a podcast, he told me to book my first ten guests and he'd make himself and his studio available. He cohosted through 75 episodes until I figured out how to talk to people, how to shut up, how to carry a conversation when it started to falter. Through all of it he taught me to be grateful, be brave, be nice and have fun.
"I'm not stupid. I do all of this work because I believe in you," he would tell me when I doubted myself or got nervous, first about trying stand up, then a year later about opening for Marc Maron.
Richard has seen me through some of the toughest times of my life and never once did he offer me any pity. Those are special kinds of friends. It's because of Richard Avery that OBSERVATIONS exists and that I became a stand up. This gallery is a small homage to the man, and what remains of that first little blog, Ilovesov.com.
Thank you Dick, for everything.